There are a lot of things that need to be done. But the only reason they need to be done fast is because I need them to be done fast. I need to work at a frantic pace because I feel more safe when I’m working and not stopping.
Things that need to be done can optionally be done at a healthy and relaxed pace. They’ll still get done, but I won’t get my fix. Good and bad are intertwined, and I lack the wisdom to discern between them. That’s not a good excuse for working this way. It’s reason to stop completely, and sort out the truth from the lies… then resume the work from a healthy and correct perspective.