Missing Olivia today. We visited her grave this afternoon. I think we’re still in shock. It’s still hard to believe she’s gone.

We’re trying to let it all (the feelings, the conflicting emotions, the frustration, confusion, all of it) just be what it is, when it is. We’re trying to practice the living of life in the here and now the way we learned to do while Olivia was alive. It’s harder now.

Since the funeral, it’s only become more difficult. That makes it feel like a losing battle. But we know that it’s a process…

Monday April 11, 2016